Anxious - to scared - to nervous - to whatever. I'm over my moment of dramatics. Yes I'm nervous about this appointment. Nervous because I have no idea what they're going to say to us, I don't know what's going to happen. I laugh at myself because I'm worried they're going to tell us we can't be parents. Laughing, hysterically almost. I'm back to our adoption interviews where they actually COULD HAVE told us "ya... um... you guys suck and we're not giving you a baby..."
I'm still worried about it not working, but I've come to grips that there is nothing I can do about that. It's either going to happen, or it's not. The good thing is, I have Alyssa. Instead of dwelling on the fact that things are taking a long time, or aren't going the way we wanted, I have the best distraction in the world. She comes with long blond hair, beautiful blue eyes, and a personality so sweet and funny she makes me about pee my pants every day. I couldn't ask for more.
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